So, right now I’m a little sad.
Did you ever really love something, a whole, whole lot, and then…something happens, something stupid, and you don’t love it so much any more but you’re still LOYAL to it and you still want to love it but then something else REALLY stupid happens and no matter how stupid you know it is, you still discover you might not love what you loved any more.
That happened to me this weekend.
And I won’t even say what made it happen because it’s super stupid and really, really lame, and it’s sort of that kind of thing that is based entirely on conjecture and circumstance and you have no idea if what you think about it is the truth but it just sort of keeps on feeling that way.
Needless to say (though I said it anyway) I feel sad because something I loved a lot, really, really a LOT, like…loyally and passionately and something I really got a lot of inspiration and joy from…no longer makes me feel that way.
And I’m sad because it’s been a few years now, that I’ve loved it. And to not love it any more is disappointing.
M
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Hm - I’m sorry you’re sad. And I’m very curious as to what you’re talking about. While reading this, the first thing that came to mind was tv shows. :P
by limecello March 24, 2008 - 17 Adar II, 5768 at 5:51 amTV can do it, (LOST comes to mind) but that’s not it. It was something along those lines, though.
by Megan Hart March 24, 2008 - 17 Adar II, 5768 at 6:52 amAh, there’s nothing silly about mourning the loss of something that mattered. Whether it’s a loss or a change in something that was important. I think we’ve all been there, I know I have and even for as strange as it felt suddenly being very sad and oddly disappointed in something/someone I liked/loved from a far it was still very real to me.
And I, too, am very curious what has you sad. Maybe if we all shared you wouldn’t feel so alone in this?
by Cynthia March 24, 2008 - 17 Adar II, 5768 at 7:20 amCynthia — It’s really something stupid and lame and silly and ridiculous and I KNOW it…and it wasn’t personal towards me at all. But all the same, some of my joy is dissipated and I doubt it will come back.
:(
by Megan Hart March 24, 2008 - 17 Adar II, 5768 at 7:50 amHaha, Megan, now I can share my inane thing. I have a love/hate relationship with food. I LOVE food network. Sometimes I wonder about going to culinary school. (Interesting because I didn’t/wouldn’t touch raw meat until I was 21, which made cooking real meals difficult until then.)
by limecello March 25, 2008 - 18 Adar II, 5768 at 8:36 amBut, a favorite food network show was Chocolate with Jacques Torres. I love good chocolate, but I’m not much of a chocoholic. His show, however, made me love chocolate -and him. I was determined to meet and marry his son. (I also knew nothing about him.) My junior year of college, I found out Jacques was gay. There went my dream of marrying his son. I was seriously bummed. No, *seriously.*