So, the past two weeks Thursdays have been full of other things, meaning I missed Supernatural. Then my Tivo ganked it, then I ended up downloading it from Amazon.com…see, Supernatural, what I do for you?
Anyway, tonight was the first night since before hiatus that I sat down to watch it in “real” time.
Oh…oh. Oh. Oh. Why do I love this show so much when every week it manages to tear me apart? I mean…I’m not wild about the apocalypse thing, because, really. How do you come back from that? Season Six? How’s it gonna work? And the very last thing I want is for it to to suck. And yet life without Supernatural…hell, at this point I’ve been with Supernatural longer than I was with some of my boyfriends. I don’t want to not have new Supernatural to look forward to. But I don’t want it to turn into the X-Files after Mulder left, either.
Tonight…tonight…Oh…so much to love but of course I’m going to go to the moment when Dean knocks on Lisa’s door and tells her that when he thinks of being happy, it’s with her and with Ben. I mean…was that the moment fandom swooned, too? Because I literally lost my breath for a second. Ok, so maybe I’m lame, but..Dean. Dean, Dean, DEAN OMG I LOVE DEAN. I just…Gah!!!!!
And of course he was a servant of Heaven. He’s Michael’s vessel, reluctant or not. He’s chosen. So he killed the Whore. So he…will…go against his brother and…
NOOOooooOOOOooooOOOoooooOOOOoooOooooooOoooooooOo!!!!!!!!
I can’t bear it! I can’t stand it! I can’t…I can’t…
BTW, neither of the J’s is scheduled to attend the SPN con I’m going to in July and can I tell you that my heart is breaking? I mean it’s just as well because I’m sure I’d explode, but…still. I’m really bummed.
Actually, I’m kind of incoherent in the aftermath of Supernatural.
That, and working like a fiend for the past few weeks. Don’t get me wrong, it’s all good, and every task I finish is one more trip to the beach in which I don’t have to work. And it’s my job, and it beats cleaning toilets. Wait, I did that today too.
I’m just…tired. And riled. At the same time.
Night, world!
M
April 8th, 2010 at 10:51 pm · Link
I thought the same thing when he was talking to Lisa. I wanted to cry. Oh to have Jenson show up at my door and say that to me, I think I’d leave me hubby.*sniff*
April 8th, 2010 at 11:04 pm · Link
@Breiab: Not for Jensen.
But DEEEEEEEAN! OH. Dean. <3
April 9th, 2010 at 12:49 am · Link
Definitely without a doubt for Dean, especially if he lets me drive his car.LOL
April 9th, 2010 at 11:13 am · Link
Hopeless Dean breaks my heart into itty bitty pieces but this is so headed to that five years into the future moment Zacharia gave him. (sniffles)
Oh the love that I have for drunk Castiel! “I found a liquor store and I drank it!” (dies)
But oh yes, the moment with Lisa. (wails like a little girl at the beauty of it)