Okay, well, yeah, so I haven’t done a Supernatural recap in a while (what with it being on hiatus and all…) but tonight…I have to.
What can I say?
Wow.
Let me just say that every single second of the episode (what was it called? Head of a Pin?) had me…in rapture. Yeah, I’m tossing out the biblical refs for youse. I was rapt, enraptured, I was there with them every single second. I ate it up with a spoon and held open my mouth so Kripke and friends could squirt that can of whipped Supernatural right into my throat. Even when I realized wow, this episode could totally use some more Sam and Dean, I was there, riding that wave from waaaaay far out all the way to the lifeguard stand.
You know, a couple years ago now I started writing an angel book and I would love to finish it, esp. since some of the themes touched on in this show are the same as in my novel. And I wonder if I’ll ever finish it.
But I digress.
Wow. I screamed aloud NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! When Sam drank the blood, but DUH, haven’t we all known that he’s doing something bad? Ingesting demon blood to give him powers, and that Ruby, oh, bad bad Ruby…man, wow. That’s some bad news right there. Why, Sammy, why? Why you gotta be so bad? But then again, I was drinking a Coke Zero so hell, I KNOW about being unable to resist temptation.
And you know, I’m guessing fandom might be in an uproar, and NO I don’t like that SAM is drinking fucking DEMON BLOOD, okay, but hello…raise the stakes? Umm…it’s fiction? Um…it wouldn’t be a whole lot of fun if they didn’t toss in some crazy stuff to make us gnash our teeth and weep.
So here’s the thing of it, for me: I love and hate where they’re going with it. I miss the monster of the week episodes like fire even as I LOOOOOOVE the angle myth arc and what they’re doing and the seals and CASTIEL and all that. I love that big, grand story, that sweeping, epic background…but I miss the standalones, I miss the days when the boys were together and all they had to do was kill a vampire, burn and salt some bones, share a few brews. I miss the days when Sam and Dean had a shot at just living a life.
I love Dean Winchester. LOVE. (I’ve said it before, I’m sure Jensen Ackles is a nice guy and all, but I LOVE Dean. Not. JA.) And I HATE that he must bear the burden of the world upon him…it is too much. Nobody can come back from that, there is no ending up happily on a rocker in a cottage in the meadow, there is not LIVING “just a life” after this, and I LOVE that the writers are putting me through this ride, this up and down, this maelstrom of emotion every week. Because yeah, I get off on that. So, while I love it for the story’s sake…
I miss the show before the stakes got so high.
Now. Four years later, would I still be watching it if they hadn’t taken these chances and gone to these places? If Sam and Dean were just pounding stakes and making silver bullets after all this time, would I still be as mad crazy in so much fucking love with this show? Would I want to make it pie? Would I?
I don’t know.
All I know is that every week I watch the new episodes and mourn for the lives of fictional people, and I weep with them. I yearn for their safety. Even as, selfish bitch I am, I clap and squee with glee about their trials and their hardships, and watch them go through the worst kinds of pain.
I can’t stand that Dean has to save the world, and that Sam is addicted, probably, to demon blood. I can’t stand it because the writers and actors have made me love these people who are not real, and I want them to be okay. I want them to be all right. I want them to not be in pain…because I love them.
And yet I want this SHOW to keep going, to keep taking me on the ride, every week, because I love it, too.
So long as they give me some stand alones — which it looks like next week’s gonna be, and a GOOD one, I can make it through the emotional highs and lows the overall story is giving me. And seriously, I eat it all up, I’m a junkie for Supernatural. If I could inject it into my eyeballs I think I would (even though I’m really a really bad “fan” because I couldn’t win a trivia contest or anything like that. Nor write a dissertation.)
It’s all about the feelings for me. Supernatural makes me feel good. It makes me feel bad, but in the good way. Overall, it just makes me FEEL and I’m an emo addict. I loooove the emotion.
So.
My take on tonight’s episode? Not enough Sam and Dean, but so much good stuff I guess I can deal. Too much for poor Dean, I simply can’t stand his emotional distress, it makes me want to cry. Sammy needs a good ass kicking and I’m sure he’ll get one that’s exactly perfect. The angel stuff? Delish, lovely, a perfect little nugget that is all at once too big for me to embrace and not huge enough to keep me from wrapping myself around it.
Because I trust the writers. I trust them all. I trust the show to deliver to me what it has done so consistently, time and again, for four years.
M
Holy fuck! I swear I did not breath for the whole hour!
I have been so busy that this spoiler whore knew next to nothing about this episode. And it was fun. And heartbreaking. Oh Dean. Oh Sam.
I trust the writers. I do. I can’t wait to see where they take all this and if the boys will ever get any kind of life.
by Patty March 20th, 2009 at 12:12 amOh. My. God. OMG OMG OMG OMG.
I’m three hours behind you Megan so the episode ended about 30 minutes ago.
DITTO. You took the words out of my head and typed them here, Can’t say it any better than that.
I was transfixed the entire hour.
Ya know the over-used expression “released the breath I didn’t even know I was holding”???? Yeah that was me when the show ended….exhale.
When Sam drank Ruby’s blood I yelled at the tv too, then my jaw just dropped open at the look on Ruby’s face while he was sucking on her arm.
And he his hot when he goes all bad ass on a demon, but now that I know where he’s getting his demon juice…oh Sammy, I remember Pamela’s warning… where is this headed.
My poor Dean, our poor Dean, but in that moment he was my poor Dean, lol. My heart breaks for him. Its too much for any person to carry and be responsible for. When he has that one tear sliding down his cheek I just want to wrap my arms around him and not let go. Ever.
Ah Castiel. Wow. I just love him. I want to see him be happy, smile a little, love a little, be loved. Maybe not in the cards for his character, who knows, but you see the compassion underneath it all.
I hated Uriel, (which means the writers are fab), so when Anna did him in there were no tears there. Especially when he tried to kill DEAN!
Thought the effects were cool in the beginning and when Uriel got his, with the angel wings spread across the ground in a way that was noticeable from above.
I too wonder where this is going, but also I do trust the writers as well and can’t wait to see what happens next.
by linda March 20th, 2009 at 1:47 amFrom the previews it looks like next week’s episode is a little lighter.
“If I could inject it into my eyeballs I think I would”…..That line pretty much sums up the greatness of the show and the feelings of those who watch it…..after that quote nothing else needs to be said…..
by Rachel March 20th, 2009 at 8:56 amWow, did I kind of…misinterpret…last night. A lot. I owe you a big apology! I blame cumulative effect and PMS.
by Natalie March 20th, 2009 at 11:16 amLoved it.
I feel the exact same way you do abotu missing the old way, but still intot his season. I’m so glad they’re back from Hiatus.
Just a thought, Has anyone wondered if maybe them saying Dean broke the first seal was a red herring? That maybe SAM was the rightous man who did something bad, by sucking Demon blood the first time? They say the man that started it is the only one who can end it..and He IS getting stronger, while Dean seems to be struggling… so.. what do you think? And if it was Sam who broke the first seal, then they brought Dean back because Dean is the only one who can save Sam, who then saves the world? LOL
Yeah, I can’t stop speculating.
Either that, or maybe they’re setting up fro a Cain and Able type thing with brother against brother? But I really can’t see that happening, it would kill the show. There’s always been tension between the brothers, but to fight that hard would be the end of the series I think.
by Sasha March 20th, 2009 at 12:54 pmVery intriguing idea, Sasha. I actually posted on my own blog this morning that when Dean said “find someone else” and Castiel’s expression changed the slightest bit, my brain went “Sam!” But I don’t know. Alistair could have been lying, but all the details (John, the timing, Cas saying they went to siege on hell) fit Dean being the righteous man. On the other hand, I can’t believe that Sam doesn’t have SOME huge part to play.
I’m dying to find out, but I think it’s going to carry us through season 5.
by Natalie March 20th, 2009 at 1:18 pmI’m with you on the adoration of yesterday’s episode. So beyond fantastic. I love the stand alones but I do tend to enjoy the arc episodes more but that’s like choosing between awesome chocolate and chocolate. It’s still chocolate.
Love how they’re developing Castiel’s character and I’m gonna miss Uriel’s snarky evil-ness.
And I will say that I’m loving the idea of the brother’s going up against each other. Oh the angst!
And Dean in the hospital…Oh Jensen, how you break my angst loving heart!
by Nancy March 20th, 2009 at 7:17 pmNatalie,
the timing could still be right. We don’t know for sure when Sam took his first drink of Ruby’s blood, but we do know it was while Dean was in Hell. They said they thought it would be John, but Dean broke first. Maybe Sam actually broke first, but the angels were too busy with their siege on hell to notice.
LOL
by Sasha March 20th, 2009 at 8:51 pmI love throwing out ideas. LOL
@Patty: I know it’s not popular to have them die at the end, but if I knew they died and didn’t go to hell or become ghosts, I could deal.
by Megan Hart March 21st, 2009 at 9:48 am@linda: DEEEEEANNNNN!!!!! *weeps* Oh man.
by Megan Hart March 21st, 2009 at 9:48 am@Rachel: Mind you, I’ve never actually injected ANYTHING into myself, anywhere…
by Megan Hart March 21st, 2009 at 9:49 am@Natalie: Accepted. Have more faith in me next time.
by Megan Hart March 21st, 2009 at 9:49 am@Sasha: I don’t think you can separate Sam and Dean, so ultimately, no matter who was the first seal, it’s going to take both of them, together, NOT apart, to save the world.
by Megan Hart March 21st, 2009 at 9:50 amYes, ma’am.
by Natalie March 21st, 2009 at 12:19 pmI dont know about anyone else but the whole thing with Sam and the blood lost me. When did he start drinking blood from Ruby? They showed a clip of her cutting her wrist and I dont remember that episode! Help my confusion somebody please.
by Mariska May 4th, 2009 at 5:35 amI believe that clip aired close to the end of the episode of the second last one.
by Nancy May 4th, 2009 at 10:01 amMariska, we first saw him drinking Ruby’s blood in “On the Head of a Pin,” when Dean had to torture Alistair. Sam was certain he couldn’t do it, and he summoned Ruby, told her he didn’t want it, but he needed it, and then sucked blood from her arm. She gave a very satisfied smirk as he did it. That blood souped up his powers so he was able to kill Alistair.
But it seems, like with any addiction, he’s reached the point where he needs more to get a smaller effect.
by Natalie J. Damschroder May 4th, 2009 at 7:50 pm