Seriously.
What is going on there?
Been a Dean girl since day one, but Sam’s grown on me. And Jared, what a cutie (didn’t do much for me at first but he’s grown on me, too.)
But now?
Wow.
The look on Sam’s face when Dean saw him exorcising Samhain broke my heart. The look on Dean’s face, watching, broke my heart. Those boys broke my heart and it hurt SO GOOD.
And HELLLLO, Castiel. That dirty accountant look works so well. Don’t send Dean back to Hell. (It’s a rhyme, can’t you tell?)
This episode horrified me, over and over. There was none of the giddy, giggly, WHEEEE to it — I watched, cringing and writhing, disgusted and disturbed. Of course, that’s what I loved so much about it — the fact they can take me from the giddy to the gasping week after week, up and down, without losing me at any step along the way.
And I love the angels, I love the mythology they’re toying with (could be that I have an angel book I can’t quite get off the ground for submission, due to other projects), and most of all, I love the fact they’re making me believe it. They’re not losing me.
And oh, Sam and Dean…why can’t you just love your brother, Dean? Why not love him for who he is, even if he does have Demon blood in his belly? Let him use his powers for goooooooooood!
But back to the hottness that is now Jared Padalecki…I wax and wane in my appreciation for his physical form, and for his performances. I *like* Jared as Sam — well, I frigging LOVE him as SAM, but I don’t always like Sam the way I unequivocably love Dean and will forgive Dean any flaw. I don’t always find Sam appealing, and I don’t always find Jared pushing my buttons the way I do his television brother.
But then there are episodes, like tonight, where my jaw drops and I sit back in awe of the pretty, but more than that, really and truly and genuinely adore Jared’s PERFORMANCE as Sam Winchester, what he brings to the role besides the broad shoulders and million-mile legs and the big, big hands. Tonight I watched him and fell a little bit in love with Sammy (though if I had to choose, I’d still prefer to be in the dark basement with Dean.)
Jensen’s had his moments this season (as in, awesome is made of Dean Winchester) and of course, so has Dean. But tonight I felt the power of the Sammy, through and through. It’s more than just how they look, those boys, though I’m not gonna deny they melt my butter. It’s what they do with Sam and Dean, every week, that make me just….GAH!!!!!
I FREAKING LOVE A TV SHOW!!!!!
*dies*
So you know what? Yeah, I know Supernatural can do no wrong in my eyes. I know I love it with the passion of a thousand fiery suns, a love that is both pure and filthy at the same time, a love that reaches beyond what should be normal for an inanimate thing, an inconsequential thing, ephemeral…untouchable. I understand this. I know it’s not absolutely without flaw, but because I love it I will forgive it when it’s less than perfect, and I will love it all the more. I realize I am crazy for something that does not exist in a manner which makes it realistic to love.
And I do not care.
Supernatural has reached Keanu status for me. If you know me, you know what that means. If you don’t know me — it’s inexplicable.
M
October 30th, 2008 at 11:49 pm · Link
Well, Jeez. I am all about Jensen/Dean but Jared/Sammy? When did he get so BIG?
http://i103.photobucket.com/albums/m123/phouse1964/jensen/nym-jp-0002.jpg
October 31st, 2008 at 3:12 pm · Link
Okay, I’m done. Just gonna sit here and stare that picture until it’s time to go to bed.
Guh.
October 31st, 2008 at 3:25 pm · Link
Wow! You have such a way with words….what are you a writer or something? I just love it all……Dean ( Oh Dean), Sammy, Bobby, the car ( sparks many fantasies), the music ( I have a new appreciation for AC/DC), the one-liners, jeans and leather jackets, Jensen’s voice ( enough to send tingles down my spine)….Sigh! Is it Thursday yet?
November 1st, 2008 at 1:01 am · Link
Sammy was pretty sexy when he went all bad ass on the demon last night. And your right, the looks on the brothers’ faces hit me right in the gut. I felt that pain. Great performances by both J men. And ya know, Castiel is pretty yummy too.
November 4th, 2008 at 5:48 pm · Link
Ditto.
Ditto.
And double dog ditto.
Jared done growed up good and I’d give anything to have Castiel grip me tight and raise me from ANYWHERE.
And Dean…oh Dean. (has intense physical reaction)