Whatever that means. I guess it means that tomorrow, I work on my fairy tale story and get as much done on that as I can (it’s not due until July, so I have some time to play) and get ready to start Second Verse on Thursday. March 1, the official start date.
I’m nervous.
I’m always nervous when I start something new. Particularly when I start something new under deadline. What if I suck? What if I freeze? Worse, what if I think I’m being brilliant and I’m not?
I’ve been thinking about Second Verse for a long time. Months, actually. It won’t be the first time I use the subject matter, but it might be the last.
Maybe that’s why I’m nervous? Because I think that I might put to rest a lot of “stuff” that I know is going to come out in Second Verse? Because I know I’m going to have to dig around in some dark places and deal with stuff that’s going to be a little painful? Because when I use it all up…it might be gone?
And I’m not so sure I’m ready to give up all my angst and woe.
At any rate, tomorrow I plan to go to my coffee shop and drink coffee and work on my story and feel like I’ve accomplished something. I’ll go on Thursday too, in order to get a good, strong start. When I write at the coffee shop I can put out a good 20-25 pages in one day, and feel really good.
I should learn to write at home.
But anyway, I’ll get a good start at the coffee shop.
And I won’t let go of all my angst and woe.
M
